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When I started this blog my life was going in the right direction. I was feeling happy and everything in my life was finally fitting into place. I wanted to write about my experiences and give my personal tips on how to live/cope with depression in order to try and help others who maybe going through a similar situation. However, a few months ago something happened in my personal life that triggered an incredible low in my life and I completely broke down. I no longer felt happy instead a darkness set in and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t shift the pain, hurt and sadness I felt. Everyday I woke up with an overwhelming emptiness, each night I prayed I would wake up feeling better or that I wouldn’t wake up at all. One morning I woke up, drained, overpowered by my thoughts and feelings of darkness. I wanted it to stop, I got a razor and hacked into my arms. All I could think was everyone would be better off without me and how death must be easier then how I was feeling. It’s been a very difficult time but the amount of love and support I have received from family and friends has been incredible they have got me through. I see my doctor regularly and take medication daily. My arms are healing and I use different ways of coping like writing, taking and drawing. I’m not out of the woods yet however each day I get stronger. It’s a cliche but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I’m taking it one day at a time. It’s not been easy to write this, I hope it will encourage anyone else who maybe feeling like I did to open up and talk about there problems. Life can throw you off track and throw you to the floor. With time, hard work and the right support though, you can get back on your feet again and find a new path.
Before and after.